i got this journal for no apparent reason,
i dont think anyone will find it becuz no one cares to look.
i can be really truthful in this one as opposed to the other one.
i hate myself.
i hate how i can't be outgoing. i hate how i'm whinny and how i annoy people.
the two people i really really care about hate me. so i guess that doesnt matter.
i wish i was brave enough to kill myself. i truly do.
i keep listening to the last track on the lifehouse album over and over. and i can't stop crying.
i never was like this before, i was happy. what is going on with my life.
i ask myself everyday. its no ones fault but my own.
i dont have anyone because i can't open up to anyone.
i put up this shield of misery becuz i'm so afraid to do anything becuz i think i'm to ugly to do anything funny or cool or wear certain clothes or be a certain way.
it's the only way i can think. oh well.
maybe i can get brave.
!kr! Current Mood: depressed